Hello everyone, today I wanted to talk about something very serious and I almost don’t even want to ever bring this topic up because it just fills my heart with sadness but if it perhaps gives someone else some kind of encouragement than it was all worth it. This topic is regarding death. I’ve never experienced someone close to me, that I talk to or see every single day, passing. This year I’ve had three people pass away in my life and the feeling is just so weird to say the least, it’s unexplainable.
The first person to pass away was my grandma’s sister although I grew up seeing her I never really ever got to know her. It makes me so sad to think of because after looking through pictures of her life I’m sure she had so many stories to tell. I can tell she lived a life full of excitement, she was such a strong, independent, truly a fearless woman who was able to give her children the luxurious life they had.
The next person who passed away was someone I saw every now and then at work always exchanging secrets to one another and laughing about certain situations at work. She was 28 and such a fun, hardworking woman. She died unexpectedly in a car accident leaving the whole workplace a little shaken and shocked. When I heard of the news it just broke my heart, I couldn’t believe what had happened, it seemed so unreal. I felt like for a few weeks I kept seeing her around whenever I glanced at some girls because I would see her in them because they had similar features. I couldn’t sleep for the first few nights of hearing the news because I couldn’t get her out of my mind, I would pray for her and her family because that’s all I could do. For someone to die out of nowhere and so young just seemed so unfair to me.
Now this Monday on November 14 I got news that another one of my co workers from my old team passed away in a car accident. This wasn’t just a co worker but an actual friend of mine that I enjoyed talking to and hanging out with.
I am completely heartbroken and taken back by this news and after hanging out with him and his girlfriend countless times outside of work my heart is completely crushed and so confused. He was such a sweet, caring, selfless person who would jump at the chance of helping you if that meant it would make your life easier. I am not exaggerating when I describe him, he would really drop what he’s doing to help another person without thinking twice about it. I remember I had to mail a letter off and that night he offered to drop it off at his post office. He was 28 and had so many dreams he wanted to accomplish and planned to do so much and I believed he would because of the hardworking person he was. I feel like his dreams were pulled right out of him and once again I was left so confused. For the first time in my life I attended a funeral for MY friend and it was incredibly saddening and heartbreaking I almost still can’t believe it, it just seems so unreal.
After praying for him, his family, his girlfriend I am left finding myself fearful of losing others in my life. Just the thought of losing someone in life I see and talk to every single minute of the day leaves me with anxiety like no other. But God has been showing me that I need to trust in him and confide in him every day constantly and pursue him because our time on earth is short. God has a reason for everything and although He may not reveal it right then and there or even in the future during our lifetime we simply have to trust in Him giving Him our lives and the lives of our loved ones.
I am also left with another thought which is becoming more and more real to me as I get older which is… I have something others are looking for which is the reality and genuine happiness even statisfaction in life God has given me. Others try to fill it with other things such as materialistic things, trips, money, education, boyfriend/girlfriends but all those things will fade away sooner or later and the only thing that is the same as yesterday and will be the same in the future is God. I find great joy that I was able to share that with my coworkers and even though maybe they might’ve thought I was a little too religious and strict on myself not really living a fulfilling life at times they both admitted to me they also loved God and believed in him. I have faith God has a place for them in his kingdom and their souls are in a resting place because that is what he has promised his children.
Below are a few verses I’ve been pray reading and enjoying that have comforted me throughout these moments.
1 Corinthians 15:22 – For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive.
Isaiah 57:1-2 – The righteous perisheth, and no man layeth [it] to heart: and merciful men [are] taken away, none considering that the righteous is taken away from the evil [to come].
Ecclesiastes 3:1-2a – There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die
John 10:28-29 and I give eternal life to them, and they will never perish; and no one will snatch them out of My hand. “My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of the Father’s hand.
John 14:3 “If I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself, that where I am, there you may be also.
Romans 14:8 for if we live, we live for the Lord, or if we die, we die for the Lord; therefore whether we live or die, we are the Lord’s.
Revelation 21:4 and He will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there will no longer be any death; there will no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away.”
1 Corinthians 15:25-26 For He must reign until He has put all His enemies under His feet. The last enemy that will be abolished is death.